stuck

I don't think I've cried so much in a day for a really long time. Its kinda pathetic. I don't even want to talk about it. I guess right now I just have to focus on my essays and get my emotions out of this whole process. All I really want to know right now is why...? I am really willing to put all my energy into this. Its really REALLY important to me. Can't she tell? I will try my best, but she won't accept it. She doesn't reply to my mails and she won't talk t me. So I'm basically stuck.